On many occasions, my thoughts start wandering and I end up feeling completely drained.
This is happened over a lovely long weekend when my thoughts
began drifting towards workload, pay scale, traffic jams, public transport, household
expenses, and even the Ladki Beheni Yojana.
These thoughts made me feel disappointed. So, I smartly redirected
them to school fees, vacation expenses, dining bills, and the never-ending
shopping sprints. Well, this didn’t help either, in fact it made me feel
helpless.
Generally, at peak of my helplessness, frustration,
exhaustion my higher-self intervenes, guiding me through, with some easy tricks.
This time, it nudged me toward binge-watching a thriller web series. Now, here
I am lying on my sofa, watching one episode after another, spending hours in
front of the TV. And still, I have no control over my thoughts… off they go
wandering again.
Exploring a new path that leads to life insurance, medical
bills, and the ever-increasing coconut prices. I even find myself wondering
whether the Ladki Beheni monthly ₹1500 really helps.
The data of expenses, the evaluation of facilities, the summation
of needs and wants, lifestyle to life expectancy, I calculated it all and the
final outcome is – ‘it’s a loss’.
I realise that for most of us, the real drain comes from
three facts that have a great impact – government policies, our society and most
importantly our own identity. Supportive policies, understanding society and ‘being
me’ is what all we want.
By now, I had used my brain to its optimum capacity, leading
to an emergency shutdown. Before I knew I was fast asleep —without even finding
out who was behind all the killings.
After a surprisingly good night’s sleep, I wake up refreshed
on a Monday morning. The day unfolded, I slip back into a traffic jam once
again… and maybe, just maybe, my thoughts will fall back into the real drain
where all my worries seem to gather—again and again.
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